I remember changing that night
into my long T-Shirt
you came in as I took my ******* off
a look giving me what I deserve

Going to sleep was hard
I knew you were in the other room
but it didn’t take very long
for you to sneak in like a snake

You climbed on top of me
the words you spoke I don’t remember
one hand on my face
you slipped inside and had your way

I felt my insides tearing
I felt you with every ******
I wished to cry and yell and scream
but keep quiet was a must

For next to us, my brother slept
so peaceful he dreamed
I surely didn’t want to wake him
Santa was coming, it’s Christmas Eve

When you decided you’re done
and my world was over
you slipped away smiling
and that’s when suicide first visited me