Her glass was half empty in more ways than one She lies awake still haunted by all of the promises broken all of the to gropes unnoticed all of the refusals ignored She wondered if she was asking for it but it wouldn’t have mattered anyway She couldn’t stop the sky from falling They take what they want while she lives in a storm of melted ice throwing punches to her own head trying to beat out the feelings no one will validate Punishing her body for the sins of her mind She was hurt by those she trusted she was burned by the stars she reached for No one is coming to rescue her from her So she hides under the bar in the shadows from evils one couldn’t imagine With bottles of contempt broken over her head being burned to a million ashes sprinkled in the ocean The flashing lights can’t brighten the darkness she knows too well She wondered if she was meant to suffer forever Trying to punish herself with each sip Looking for God in the spilled drink on the floor getting high to be closer to heaven She would never tell you about the forced submission the stardust left behind in place of her innocence She knows no one would believe her so she believes in nothing