Man I don't know what's going on with me.
It's like I'm stuck in this mental hell and I don't want to be.
Honestly I'm just trying to keep going with it,
I could be dying inside but I never let you see it.
Weak one? No I'll never be it..
Life has a funny way of showing up on you.
Like **** I was fine now I don't know what to do.
I'm crying I'm sighin,
I'm moving with pain,
I'm just trying to keep going with whatever motivation remain.
I been through it all
I felt every major fall.
And I did it on my own,
**** everyone yet don't wanna feel alone..
****, What happened to the peace?
On god this got me feeling in need of a release.
But I'm ok, I'm fine.
My past stuck on replay
But I'm ok, I'm fine.
No need to press rewind.  
I pretend to smile so you'll be okay,
I pretend I'm fine so you have a good day.
All of this emotional **** I'm really starting to feel faint,
**** this **** get lonely,
After a minute of trying to be happy when you ain't..
When everyone is expecting you to rise and don't understand when you don't,
But I promise I'm not giving up,
I promise I won't.
Another day, another issue,
I just pick my head up and grab a tissue.
I'll be okay I promise in time I'll be,
Until then I'm moving forward just so you can see.
Don't worry no dirt on my name,
I'm still Haley I'm still the same.
Just a little broken just a little down,
But I'm gonna make you smile when I come around.
Sometimes the people who hurt the most show it the least,
Humor at it's best and pain hidden like a beast.
I can't hold it in all the time,
It's not a race it's a climb.
Stay woke to what you blind to,
People really taking their lives,
This ain't a game out here,
Off your pain that devil thrives.
Listen with your heart,
You never know when you're gonna be apart.
If you care show it, if you mad own it.
You only get one chance, live it.
Now I don't know where I'm going with this,
Just tryna make sense of all of this.
**** I don't know why I stay in my head,
From wake up to going to bed.
There's not much to share than what's already been said.
Theres not much to think than what's already been in my head.
I'm trying to find the reason I feel so bad,
It's like my light getting dimmer and I'm loosing what I had.
Maybe it's anxiety? Maybe it's depression?
Never thought how I feel would be something I question.
****.
This got a little too real and I'm not ready to deal,
I got too much going on with everything that I feel.
But why am I crying?
Why sometimes I feel like I gotta give up trying?
Why is my world so dark from the light?
Something needs to change man..
Something ain't right.
It's not okay that I'm giving up the fight.
So here I go again picking up the pieces I've torn apart,
Nothing but a struggle when my life story start.
Is it worth the pain though?  
****.
I really don't know..