i wish i had loved myself earlier the bumps on my skin the lines on my thighs my front teeth peeking out my stomach, curved to it's imperfect perfection my hour glass body he'd tell me multiple times
i wasted my youth on tears and fear to be able to look at the rest and feel inferior i cried raindrops i hoped i'd call pretty but darling it's not ******* easy i look in the mirror and see shatters of the pain in my shoulders everytime i felt like i needed to cover my ******* skin, it belongs to me but why is it that i feel like im not free?
i don't wanna look at her anymore her face, everyone adores i am happy for her she deserves it but God, i just wished i looked like her a bit
i tear myself apart every ******* time i put myself on a chart on the lowest bar that's where i am i can't help it i just always seem to compare
i wish i had loved myself earlier to avoid all that trouble i've learnt now, somehow her beauty doesn't define my struggle i am all things wonderful in my own way slowly, i'll believe it even if it's just for a day.