I wish I could explain  
What it is that hurts
When I’m alone  
When I’m on the outskirts

I don’t belong
Next to them
They’re all too good
And I don’t belong next to ‘em

But I smile and stay
Pretend I’m okay
When really I’m
having a bad day

But they can’t see
The pain I hide
The way I’m dying
Slowly inside

And I won’t tell them
Then I would only be a bother
Just like I was
Was to my father

I don’t understand
Why I’m sad
Maybe it’s because  
I’m hiding my mad

I’ll never know
Why they split
I guess its ‘cause
I was a misfit

But I’ll never understand
Why they quit  
It hurt a lot
I’ll admit

But they don’t care  
They never will
They wouldn’t care
If I was killed

But in this group
Where I sit
They say they care
When I want to quit

I don’t know why
They’re here for me
Because all I bring
Is misery

But they’re still here
To show me love
To say they care
No matter how far away I shove

It’s amazing how
They care so much
When we’ve never met
Touch to touch

Maybe one day
I’ll see them really
And then I’ll say
That we’re silly

Because so long  
We’ve shown care
To each other  
Together we’ll stay, I declare

One small thought
Still remains
In my head
It causes pains  

That one thing
Is repeated
All it says “You should be deleted.”
Everyday, it leaves me defeated

Because it means
I do not fit  
In this group
Where I sit  

Today is my last day
Because I quit
In this life
So today I commit

My one last note
Says goodbye
To all my friends
They probably won’t cry  

And that’s okay
I say, but I lie
It’s just a confimation
That I should die

And soon I do
As I visit the bridge
A tear slips past  
As I jump from the ridge

One last thought
plays in my mind  
‘You stupid girl,
They were being kind.’