I saw nothing but darkness I was in a dark spot.
But when I saw your light I thought my story would have a different plot.
She finally gave me a reason to put down that bottle of scotch because when we spent time together all my problems were forgot.

After 17 years of chronic depression, I thought I found a blessing.
After 17 years of darkness I thought I found my person.
After 17 years of hurt I thought I could stop the hurting.
After 17 years of Hell I thought I found my Heaven.
But after 15 months all my trying fell pointless.

All those times you told me you loved me you must have been faking.
Explain to me how I go from a potential husband to someone worth nothing?
For 15 months you acted like you were nothing but loving but every time you told me you loved me you were really bluffing.
All I ever did was give you every piece of me and looking back on it you took all of it for free.

I promised that I would stop taking the drugs I take because I loved you.
I promised that I would stop drinking the drinks I drank because I loved you.
I promised that I would never break up unless you gave me a major reason too.
So after everything I did, tell me why you put me through everything you put me through.

It isn’t ideal, but just remember it was you that put us through this.
You made it clear and I can’t ignore that there is no future with us.
Cause you would rather soak the lies and cut our ties and leave me to reminisce, about what we were.

And what we could have been.