Despite all the hell
The unspeakable evils
I do not tell

I found hope
I held on tight
Ignoring the obvious *****

I wrote poems of colors
And heart flutters
I tried to stop my stutter

For i thought
Deep down
I finally had a shot

Everyone says it's all in my head
That there's nothing wrong with me
I'll find someone eventually

Take the risk
Make the move
Not all men will treat you like this

Once again vunerable
Once again opened my heart
Once again fell completely apart

At least I wasn't laughed at
Not really enough
To keep me from crumbling

The dark cloud
Of blue despair
Still in my air

Won't let me breathe
Not allowed to love
Only known to bleed

Bleed out pain
And then restrain
Into nothing

Goodbye
I'm leaving again
I'll never find
A lovely friend

So long
I'm not strong
To let my emotions
Belong