Late at night I would watch and watch. A smile was usually plain to see across my face. Not every joke would land, nor every video a hit. But no matter what I would always watch. Today I leaned of your horrible ways. All of the terrible things you had done, day after day. I know it hurt those who knew you best, but it also hurt me deep in my chest. I lost a hero, though we never met. Gone are the late nights, gone are those pleasant thoughts. But I still will live with joy and smiles, but for now I will walk on. Away from your videos, now turned vile
Today I lost someone I'd looked up to for a long time. It genuinely hurts to think about. As always, processing through poetry helps.