I thought you understood me
And I felt like I could really
Lay myself bare for you
Expose my soul to the elements
Just for you to take a look
And you made me feel as if
Love was worth wanting
Worth having
If I could have it with you
And now it hurts to say the words
Because they bring back things
I’ve trained myself to forget
But I lie
Because I will never forget
I see your reflection
In every mirror I pass
And I still find pieces of you
Floating in the abyss of me
And every time I scream
It’s your voice that echoes in my soul
How could I have become
So attached to a ghost
I knew the consequences
Because they’re always the same
But I’d allow you to break me
Just to feel you one last time
And I never got a whisper of goodbye
Not a wave or a touch or a taste
Of you leaving
Until you were gone
And I won’t say it’s not fair
Because you always said
“Life isn’t fair”
And I know it
And I know it
And I know it
But I won’t believe it
Because I want you so badly that
I won’t allow it to be true
But
Realizing I’m not good enough
Is a pain I’d rather lock deep inside
Because for me
Love will never be a reality
Everyone leaves.
No one tries.
I know this; I breathe this
And it fuels the kind of darkness
That’s been hiding in my chest
And it fuels the wailing apathy
That’s been building in my heart
Because you were my spotlight
And now that you’re gone
The shadows swallow me.