It’s all manifested I can trace back to then I was just a boy Trusting my heart Stumbling upon life’s hards truth This parasite burrowed, deeper and deeper as I aged Living in the dark corners of my mind Somehow I found it to be a friend It was solid My whole life happiness was borrowed Time would run its course for the things I cherished youth, loved ones, crushes, anything that made me smile Where did I go wrong?
this little buddy though I still had him We shared loss, We learned from it
Laughter, voices, embraces All Pigments of fading memories. Everything just leaves Scrambling through grieve to make sense of it all but i just can’t. Love must never die. Still, We must. To celebrate old times is a toast to a funeral. When does right and wrong become apparent in these states When does insanity and normality become neighbors Fearful, reflection and complexion go their separate ways Weak and fragile I weigh my knees Cold and motionless My friend had reached my heart. Feeding off everything I had left. I became numb. Every day was yesterday and tomorrow was today. Slowly, I lifted myself I kept falling In a hot sweat I lost what was most important I lost myself
This is my life, embedded pain. A screech rings through my head. In the hazy fog I hear a feint scream Begging and pleading for me. There’s a flickering light I feel my heart begin to pound I can almost touch it.
Until the screech echoes again
I’m living in a war hiding under the beautiful eyes I’ve been gifted
Sleepless nights have restitched my tone I hide the agonizing sorrow like a gun