i often wonder whether they can tell that i'm telling but not all that i'm hiding behind my smiles and time tables and that you're still on my mind
am i a fool? am i kidding myself enough for the both of us? did you not have to do anything in the end because i lied to myself enough did i do your work for you?
it doesn't hurt me anymore, you know I lie but seeing your face so distorted makes my hands shake and hearing your voice, destroyed, beaten makes my heart ache and feeling my blood run faster makes me angry and in general something in me feels like it'll break
you can't make me run like this anymore you can't continue making me feel this way anymore i'm hurting and i'm yearning, but worst of all I'm hoping for you to turn around, for you to clear the fog, for you to finally respond for you. to come back the way you left