Broken heart without a sound
Broken mind I can't rebound
Slithering, molten, smoking pain
In my chest and in my brain
My disease is killing me
Not literally of course
but it might as well be
Slide cold metal against warm skin
Vital essence bleeds in sin
Hide my sorrow, hide my pain
No one cares about what I'm saying
Bleed myself ragged and dry
Feeling weak as I start to cry
Stupid ****, that's what dad said
Had to drink before he went to bed
Mom is there but mom don't see
That life itself is killing me
Dad doesn't remember anything
So I am left with my knees shaking
Come up with a plan, throw it away
Lose my nerve, face another day
Tomorrow I feel exactly the same
Don't know how to numb the pain
No one loves me no one cares
No one will help me face my fears
I am destined to be alone
Punishment for all my wrongs
It's my fault that I got hit
I pushed dad too far in a fit
So push love away with a 10 yard stick
It's all my fault that he got sick
Every man deserves more than me
The rancid, useless junk I see
I'm so fat I'm so deranged
I don't even know what I'm saying
End it all just seems so easy
Ending the pain is easy peasy
Mental recovery takes decades
A quick bullet won't even take a day
A deep slice here and a noose hanged there
So many options to make it better
***** it all I say goodnight
Time for me to turn off the light