I'm not sure how to feel
I'm haunted still
Seeing you laying there
So still so cold....dead
I never expected to lose you
My head is still in a daze
I keep doing what I can
what I think would make you proud
I'm sober still even tho
I tell you that day I could
Have thrown it all away
.....
what kind of thanks would that have been to you tho
Everything you did to help me
The time and effort put forward
Just for me throw it all away
I cried, I sobbed, I even laughed
I stayed sober because of you
I always wanted
to make you proud
And in that moment
I know I did