Have you ever wanted
To write
The most depressing
Of poetry
And bathe in its toxic energy?

I do right now
I want to drown
In its gravitational pull
And down and down and down
To an abyss that treats me well

I write best there
But I'm trying
To come up
and breathe in
lilies and salt-breeze
And to surround myself
In Gaia's nurture

I write best here too
I soar higher
I Chase with Skoll and Hati
Love drums in my mind
Elegance entwined

But I am tested
That pull keeps tripping me
beckoning me
showering me
With it's coquettish smile

But I tie my laces
And gulp back rising bile
And breathe in:
"I love lilies" I exhale

And a petal wilts before me...