I start sweating My breath mild and heavy My hands shaking, My palms sweaty I'm not steady, Feeling dizzy I'm getting uneasy, I'm going crazy I get a panic attack for having a panic attack At controlling myself i **** Whatever I'm holding i tightly clutch It's going to be a bumpy ride My whole body starts trembling like a raging tide I stealthily try controlling myself as i check my side I panic again fearing them seeing me trying to hide I'm all wet soaked in sweat and frightened like a child I'm losing my breath my temperature is rising up I loosen my cloths and between my friends i try to widen the gap I try convincing myself to stand up I cant look up I try to loosen up I feel a tear in my eye I'm hurting but i have to lie I force myself to calm down Gulp air and breath in out a few times Quickly wipe of the tear Smile and pretend to be in cheers When deep inside I'm filled with tears A grown up full of fears Fears if the demons within me Fear of the me inside me Tears from the pain i can't explain What i face everyday they can never withstand What i go through they will never understand I have Anxiety! A disorder you've never had(heard)