they let their sticky humid hands hold my glitching hologram body against the scratchy playhouse walls and drag their clammy claws where no child should think to rub all the while whispering into my vacant ears how they would beat me and bite me and cut me and kick me if anyone were to ever find out our little game as tapeworm tears sludged from my sickly sweet rotting eyesockets and down my shiny shaking dust stained cheeks silently over my cold and closing throat and when my dad finally ripped the splintering wooden door across the sandy shifting floor i was so pale pink blue i could have been six hours dead save for my fracturing porcelain and plexiglass heart destructive and bashing and shattering itself through my frail and brittle crumbling ribcage whispering to me how badly my dad would scream at me for the way we were playing