Sadness envelops
My heart and soul
Keeping me confined
Choices taking their toll.

Freedom seems so far away
Melting into an abyss of emptiness.
****** parts and organs dying
Not coping well with all of the stress

Something gripping me, leaving me crippled
Tortured by my own worst enemy, myself
Too late for the past, so tainted
Unforgiven, unwanted, enough tears to fill the well.

Never enough, never okay
Seeking revenge, but not today.
Isolated and alone, mortified
The wrongs I’ve done, now need to pay.

Frozen in fear of loss
My heart is protected with walls
Unwilling to trust another
Hemmed within myself, death now calls.

Depression eating me alive
Like a serpent that devours
My time is running out
These are my final hours.

The cycle starts anew
A million nails through my flesh
The misery and pain endure
Now I can only guess.

Clouded judgement causing scars
Leaving me utterly alone again
The past becoming the present
Going back to the sickness that has always been