Balloons and glitter in the air sparkly dresses and countdowns I don't know how I survived I said after all these years you would think the cold air would feel less harsh on my skin but this time it lingers letting itself in and I'm so scared of what's to come I guess all I can do is try and stay warm regardless of the red of my cheeks and the trembling of my hands and five years goes by so fast and so, so slowly when you're waiting for your chest to unthaw waiting for the summer to come and the year to be new