i don't know why i'm not ******* over you
maybe it's because we never really had an ending
cuz ya know
you just stopped talking to me
you just didn't say a word to me when i sat down beside you
you just didn't say a word while i cried beside you
you didn't even look at me
it was if i never existed to you to begin with
and that ******* hurt
and it kept hurting
because it was like i never mattered to begin with
like i was so insignificant you could drop me from your mind in a second
i guess you really are the only boy i ever liked more
i don't know what i'm looking to gain from this
maybe i just want you to tell me that i did never matter
maybe then i can finally hate you for real
because it's hard to miss those you hate

love,
delilah