It's not like I want to die
But I'm not in the mood to be alive either
It's very annoying
I'm so alone
And cold
I thought things had changed since last year
But it was all a desperate faux
Conjured up by my mind
Making me believe everything was fine
But it was all but fine
Life was miserable
Sad
Lonely
Grey
Boring
And repetitive
And it still is
It's never going to change
No matter what I do
All that I am allowed to do
Is sit there and watch my life descend into nothingness
Powerless to control the flow
Just another fish
Swimming
For dear life
But that life already left
So what's the point in trying still
There is none
Sorry to say
But there really isn't
Goodbye