cupboards clash and bounce startling my heart the sounds of this empty house waking me again
already weary by the very thought of daylight coming in goosebumps ride my skin and the compost rotting inside me churns i tell myself these days will end but thereβs not an end in sight i wash myself with bristled brushes and rinse the pans with care, watch the water drip through the ceiling but the neighbors upstairs arenβt even there
my feet tread circles small trajectories to map my self contained madness stick my head in the oven just to see how deep the dark goes
let me replace the people i once knew let me blanket my misery, air freshener over mildew tablecloth soaking up spots of blood cover my face in make up to mask the fear i donβt dare to show