Two am and I'm wide awake
Pacing the floor beside a bed I once shared with a woman that use to love me
Now it sits cold and empty
Dark mental images keep me from sleep
So I grab my phone to release the pain
Try to make words rhyme to post them online
Maybe impress a few strangers
Pray at least one hits like
So I can feel like I'm worth more then nothing

Mixing liquor and coke
One shot chased with two lines
Label it poetry but to me...
This is my heart bleeding
Asking what if while reliving the past making bad memories reignite the flame
On the same road I spent half my life on
Four hundred and sixty nine pairs of shoes I have worn out on broken lane
Shed more tears then three oceans could hold
Wonder aloud why I still ask questions When I been waiting on answers since 99
The cherry from these Marlboro reds is the only light ahead of me
Been secluded so long I ******* hate me
Man life just loves to penetrate me
Tried of being on the downside of the bright side
If this is to dark I'm sorry but it's all I been allowed to know
You holy father took most of my family
And that ***** I mentioned in the second line stole the rest from me
Jesus Christ what do you have aginest me...

I'm sorry Lord please forgive me
Truth is i changed in ways that makes me ashamed
No longer the man of yesteryear
To look at me now you would never believe the greatest woman to ever be raised me
Am I to lost to find the real me
Me...
Me...
Selfish ******* look how many lines end with me
It wasn't you that cancer killed
You ever fell asleep just to never wake again
You know about bring bedridden while your body decides to slowly fade away
Be honest with yourself
Do you blame her for taking the kids away
Turned this house into a hell hole
Preach you want change but afraid to take that step
Who can live when their lying to their self
My advice is ...
If you tired of this downhill road
Turn your *** around
Fight the battle that leads to higher ground
If that's to much then carry on
Find a spot and dig your hole
We don't need the dead walking around up here