Bad dreams?
Not good to lay around eyes closed.
Seems I dream for you.
We'll  be together forever.
One day.
It's almost been a year.
Soon.
I promise.
I left for work
A full pack of pall malls
In my back pocket.
Why?   I've worked my *** off
For a year.
Five dollars is all I got.
Can I borrow?
There is a wall it seems.
I can barely hear you.
I'm tempted to smash my head
Against it or ******* tear my shirt
Off bash the next ******* smile of
Contentment into oblivion.
Whoa.
Idiot.
Calm. Slow.
Breathe.
What would that accomplish
In any positive way?
******* shut the hell up!
Stop this wheel this perpetual
treadmill.
******* all the people why do they seem to be making headway.
Oh. Hi.
The cashier said $4.25 sir.
Hi. 2 bananas a dollar each and a coke
A pecan spin. My CPA brain **** calculated
Like that's halfway to 9
Of my pay.
Still got lunch to buy.
Gas
I'm not even breaking even.
Guy behind me in line
Look on his face
Like I was too slow
In his way, I wanted to flatten him.
No. Can't be going around flailing
Just because you've managed to **** your life up royally all those nights
flashing Benjamin's like you some made guy. The times you did make money.
Gaming. Trying to dream.
I dream for you.
And so it goes.
Dreams reality life
A lifer at the wheel.
Heard a story once
Think it was by some Greek
About a rock and a hill.
I relate.