There is a bus stop I stand by everyday Around me is every person who has ever hurt me or let me down They stand here with me day by day When the bus comes I'm the last to get on every single time I stand awkwardly as all of the seats fill As usual there are no empty seats left for me I must pick the lesser of my evil's and choose one each day The heaviness of the fear and panic sink into my core As I place myself beside one of them once more
Today however as I stood with the others as I stand everyday I felt their hollow eyes burn into my back As the bus arrived I saw it load with all these people that detest me With all the memories that they carry All the memories that weigh like dumbbells on my being And for once I just stand there I do not get on And I watch as the bus full of all these things I hate Drives away as another appears
It stops before me and the door opens as the driver beckons me to get in It isn't my bus, but I still drag my feet forward As if pulled by an invisible force like a magnet I can't pull myself away When I enter I see other passengers Not all of the seats are full, in fact many are empty But it still feels full, yet not stuffy I feel welcome as I stand in the aisle of the bus I'm dragged down by a brown eyed beauty And I feel like for once I've found my place Within this bus filling with the things I love, with people I trust