i used to write about scars i can't see anymore, i would tear open and salt wounds in hopes of a piece that i could but would never fully be proud of. these pieces i wrote held me down and made my feet drag throughout these hallways and, i'm not doing that anymore. i'm starting to remember who i was at birth, who i am when i'm in my happiest state and not even my demons can drag me back down to the hell i used to light. i love, and i smile. i used to write so much about who i used to be that i started to miss it when i couldn't write anymore. my mind lived at more than four years back, i relived my darkest days over and over when i couldn't see the sun in the morning. i'm not doing that anymore. last year, i lost my best friend, my favorite person in this entire world, my sun and my moon and my stars, i believed the earth spun for him and solely him and i still do. losing him made me lose my hope. and for that time, there were more dark days. there were fresh wounds and igloos made of tissues and blankets. i will miss him forever but i will live in his honor. i'm holding my head up high and i will love and admire the earth until i meet my Everything again. i used to write about the bad days, the cloudy days, the days where i cried on my bedroom floor, the days where i burst out in tears during a normal day in class because i just couldn't do This anymore. i'm not doing that anymore. i've learned and seen how beautiful this world can be.