Feelings of relief
When I gain back control
From my fits and my anger
And everything I know
I relish that relief more than anything else
Cause the ****** chaos before, it was holding me down
And part of me wants to die but the other parts a coward
So I'm constantly at odds with myself and my self destructive powers
And so much stuffs on my mind, I think it's a little to much
Cause everyone's leaving and they all leave a touch
And though they leave a touch, they take so much more
They take my affection, my kindness and they break my trust at its core
But it's fine because they'll go on and they'll lead happy lives
And I'll be here holding on not wanting to survive