I started skipping meals again, It’s honestly not a big deal. Because just when someone notices, They tell you how to feel. I want someone to love me, I need to feel that fire. But all I’ve ever really known is how to be desired. Because if they don’t like you, There must be something wrong. So here I am, replaying and repeating, the exact same song. Because if someone likes what they see, They are more likely to try it. But I don’t want to be tried anymore, For God’s sakes just buy it. Because I’m not a cheap tester perfume with the paper thrown away, And I’ve been treated like that almost everyday. I started skipping meals again so I could be ideal, I wanted to be seen as special, I’m just trying to heal. But maybe I don’t want to be seen anymore, I can’t deal with anymore eyes. So now I listen to this broken record, Telling me societies lies. I am beautiful and I can be happy, No matter what they say. You can always buy a new record, Just as tomorrow is a new day.
this is inspired by what i think most girls, including me, go through.