sit down on the wood chips and cry sob weep. my tears are matches that will set the ground aflame. i can't stop thinking: i love him. a wall is behind me. i want to make the wall surround me to form a room with no door, no escape. trap me. i don't care. the place has so many memories. lock me with the memories. they'll be painful. but that's what i want. hopefully they stab me. take me. ruin me. **** me. help me.
the rock wall is the place i feel safe. the place where i want to stay in forever. except, i canβt. i donβt own it.