I loved you with my heart,
I loved you with my soul,
I gave you credit of everything I became,
I heard all that you said,
I followed you blindly,
I believed it when you proposed me.. ,
When I was a child..a teenager..,
I believed you when you said YOU LOVE ME..!!

I believed you when you said I am 'different' for you..,
I believed you when you said I am 'different' from others,
I never objected when you befriended many..,
I understood when you said 'you can't marry me'..,
I understood when you did not inform me 'you are engaged'..,

Yet

The only thing I wanted to believe,
The only thing I wanted to know that "YOU LOVE ME"...!!

We stayed friends, platonic always..,
In the moments of my need,
You helped me always,
During exams and competition..
You motivated me always..,
You saw no harm came to me always..,
All these were acts  giving credibility to my belief...
The fact for me that..
You 'cared' for me always..!!
That in bottom of your heart 'you love me always'!!

But one day...

Towards the end of that cherished relationship..,
The time had come for us to move on..,
You came to say a final good bye,
The FINAL MOMENT had finally come..,
I asked you one thing, with tears in my eyes..,
Waiting either to flow out or to roll back forever..,

I asked you one last time
"DID YOU EVER LOVE ME?"

And that one last time.. You answered,
"NO, NEVER"!..

SILENCE PREVAILED...!!!

And then...

It doesn't matter that we did not marry..
It doesn't matter that you proposed marriage to me just a month after this..,
It doesn't matter you divorced your wife after one month of marriage,
It doesn't matter the whole world blamed our friendship for your divorce,

IT DOESN'T MATTER ... At all...!!!

That NO, NEVER... Stayed with me..
Is still staying with me..
Will stay with me forever..

Even today I credit you for what I have become..,
Even today I know you have chiseled me a sculpture..,
Even today I know "YOU LOVED ME BACK THEN"...

But IT DOESN'T MATTER, DOES IT??


Sparkle in Wisdom
24/6/2018