I don't know what is scarier
the dark thoughts or the happy thoughts
they both make me very conflicted
and most times I don't know the difference

Dark Thoughts

They consume 99% of my mind
there isn't a time where they don't leave my mind
**** yourself
**** yourself
they scream, suddenly I that's all I think in my mind
Next thing I know,
there I am doing what is being thought in my mind
Slit the wrist
Slit the wrist
turns to be what I do..
**** yourself
**** yourself
and so,
I try to

Happy thoughts

My mind doesn't have many
but when it does it's very scary
Be Happy
Be Happy
the thought wants me to think
but it isn't the type of dream I can believe
Happiness doesn't exist
Just like my first kiss.
When the happy thoughts do come along
they do not last very long
they flash through my mind
like when the wind rushes by
it's there one minute but not the next
and so I am left with a crazy mess

I don't know what to think
but the happy and dark thoughts is what it seems to be
They are scarier than the days that come and go
mainly because the happy ones never show
dark ones always appear one way or the other
and so I do
what they have told.