like death from above; you left me, bereft of thought. as if blessed by a devil, or behest from a god. your lullabies used to fit like a glove, as long as they were stories without plot. just like our made up memories of swans and doves. they twisted and turned, like the noose that we tied, around what we swore wasn't our love.
*******, i wish i could beat myself up over what i did wrong, but there is nothing. it wasn't my fault. a weight off my shoulders i never wanted to lose.