Cant control this feeling
This fear of drifting away
A feeling i cannot help
But endure every single day

Sleep, always restless
Fake smiles, for you to think I'm ok
A shield, a mask, a boulder
To hide the pain away

I cant seem to close my eyes
Despite the heavy weight
Though i weigh them down, they Never shut
Sleep, they've begun to hate

The feeling of pain is horrible
Especially when no one can see
That i have lost a part of myself
I have lost the elated side of me

no longer am i fond of hugs
No longer am i willing to wait
For someone to find and help me
I believe it's much too late

I cant seem to close my eyes
Too many nightmares, chasing me
No dreams with rainbows and smiles
Only fear to an unimaginable degree

No longer do i believe in love or trust
I can no longer keep my feelings at bay
Can no longer act as well as i used to
I am too tired to shove my feelings away

I am no longer able to breathe right
I am no longer able to define life the right way
I am surrounded by people i no longer love
People to whom i dont know what to say

I cant seem to close my eyes
What else is there to say
Im a girl with chronic insomnia
And the fear doesn't seem to be going away

I have lost the ability to love
Because of people who have turned their backs
And because of that, thanks to them
Ive become an insomniac