I grabbed a pen and a paper
With my head bowed down
A broken hearted boy
Very week and feeling empty inside
Casting all my tears and pains on the pen and the paper
To write I did write
But what I wrote doesn't make sense So
I squash the paper and throw it in the bin
Stalking from the Conner there she stands
She picks the paper from the bin
And glance me as I fade to the front door
She grabs a geriatric complacent chair
Swiftly she take a sit and she unfold the paper
To read she did read but she couldn't understand what I wrote
She runs to the front door,  look left and right
But I'm gone
She take the paper and put it under her pillow
Maybe one day when I read it will make sense (that's what she thought)
The days kept on going with the paper under the pillow of hers
The heavenly made gorgeous girl
With a glowing face
I used to call her an angel
But now when I see her, I see a demon on a human body
She covered her tracks very well and deceived me with the glowing virtuous face
With her fake love,  the love that blinded me
In my mind it was only her running infinitely
I gave my all,  she was my world,  the best thing I could ever had
She was my everything
Until I see her true colors
The girl who doesn't tie her knots
Sleeping with many play boys
How could this be possible oh God
But she is quite, cool, the ever smiling beautiful girl
With an innocent face
To me she was a diamond
But in reality she was just a shining stone
The girl with no value
She is worthless, that's all i could say
She took the paper and read it for the second time and still
She couldn't understand what I wrote
She continued on wrecking her precious body by sleeping around
Contaminating her spirit and destroying her soul
She never stopped
I moved on with my life
Dying day by day when I remember her and the beautiful moments we had
It was impossible to let go but
I never seized my dreams
I never seized of being a good guy, being real
I still believed there is true love
I was afraid to settle because I calculated my worths
I continued on building my self and my future
One day I meet her
She was astonished to see me
There she goes
She weeps in tears,  she commemorated all the world I promised her To
Treat her like a queen
That I will marry her
Take her to beautiful places
But now Im with someone else who looks beautiful young and fresh
She took me for granted
Treated me like an option
Pitifully I look at her
She turns back and run away with tears rolling down her beautiful fallen exasperated cheeks
She arrives home and open the wardrobe drawer
She takes the paper that I wrote
She couldn't hold herself
Tears keeps on rolling
She now understand what I wrote
She never stops crying
She grabs a paper and a pen
She writes a suicidal note
Leave it on the kitchen counter
Only voices running in her head
Demons Whispering, telling her to pull a trigger
She goes back to the bedroom
take the paper that I wrote
She read it for the last time
She realize I'm the only one who ever cared
It was stupid for her to let me go
She got a disorientation  
And lost the moon while busy counting the stars
What I wrote didn't make sense
I just wanted to feel better
Take the pain away
I blurt outed  all my feelings
And motivated myself that I will be fine
That's what I wrote