i fall far too fast
a tidal wave of emotion drowning me
filling my lungs until i cannot breathe
under the weight of your sheets
i think
i am destined to be a fatality
seeking comfort in bulletproof arms
that tighten around my neck like a noose
you tell me
you love me you love me you love me
then throw me off the pier to sink
stones in my pockets
i fall far too fast
as the blue light turns to black light turns to nothing
i come to land within a shipwreck
the ruins of my past loves back to haunt me
telling me
i will always be this way
because i gather kisses like pebbles
and fill my heart with them
and tell myself that it is love
so when i am cast out
i have nothing left to do
but drown