I was ok but I was anxious I tried to rest to stop twitching, stop groaning, stop my head from ******* pounding It wasn't worth it Once my brain stop ticking like a broken clock it settled back down here again Depressed again I wondered why this keeps on happening Not the obvious reason, my bipolar condition isn't the interesting part anymore But why down now? Why have things changed? Then I look outside and am reminded the glaring sun feels so exhausting alone I only felt better and laid down my crazy head when rain was pouring I wanted to go outside and drown in it I was cold I was lonely But rain has always made things feel better when everything swings SAD Most people hate the winter but for me its the opposite The burning sky The heat The loose skin I'd rather be wrapped up in my sweater and have the sky not remind me how unbright I can be inside Its hard to pretend to be brighter than you are next to the sun In the darkness its easier to be bright But Its also easier to feel like the entire universe isn't watching you fail Easier to feel like even the sky is sad sometimes I've always felt worse in summers, haven't I? Funny I never noticed it until now Funny it fit well with school and college Now it just makes me feel broken But a lot of things make me feel broken, don't they? Guess this is just another