A pinwheel of desperation
Birds with leather wings sink into my skin
My suicide toolbox I wear as a party hat
Who decides what we want?
Who extinguishes the fire that burns inside you?
Afraid of touch, nothing to give
Words are weapons screaming at me
I'm living to die, dying to live
Can't catch a full breath
Just don't feel like me, pain obtained
I often wonder do words even come out?
Wrists bleeding, just a frail wallflower
I don't want to talk about it
It has been talked to death
I'm asleep inside my head
Staring at the stars I weep
Take my soul, take my secrets
I'll thrive on sorrow and heartbeats
I can't have anything sharp
Hide the pills she may overdo it again, once again
In the tub the water over my head, begging to drown
I'm found
Tried to end it all, makes me wonder what did I do wrong?
I did not even get a goodbye kiss
I'm in a mental health war
They say talk more
I disassemble my mind
Crying from hunger, sick of habits I can't break