my happiness comes in waves
nothing, and then all at once

but even in the happiness moments
when I'm at a coffee shop
when I'm getting drunk with friends
when I'm sleeping peacefully
you cross my mind
you disrupt my dreams

will it be this way forever?
is closure an unreasonable desire?
maybe our love
wasn't meant to have an ending
wasn't meant to have closure
our hearts were simply meant to wander
aimlessly
in different countries

I am happy, please don't get me wrong
I met someone who is lovely
he loves me well and always tries
but remember our plans?
money ready to be recklessly spent
just to get one quick kiss
too much passion for kids so young

I hope you're doing well
I hope people are telling you
only kind words
only encouraging reminders
I wonder if you also feel a piece of your heart missing?
if you do, please know it's safe
and warm in a treasure chest

along with old tickets and dead flower petals
they're still beautiful even though
they're completely dead
old song lyrics, old poems
all the precious reminders of you
I can't get rid of them
I don't know why

you're all I write about
it's an accident I swear
you took the most valuable part of me
my words
my thoughts
my love

my happiness comes in waves
nothing, and then all at once