I feel like I have to remind myself daily
Not to **** myself
Write down a list of reasons to stay
But I worry one day the weight is going to become too strong
Weighting down my fragile frame
Anchoring me towards one decision
Most days I feel it's getting better
But others become just too much
I spend my school days playing console games
Keeping my mind the best I could at bay
But now my love is poetry and all I do is pull emotions and thoughts from myself
Strung together in lines instead of choking on words I left at the back on my mind
I know I want to be here
Because I've got so much love
Even though my mind clouds my judgment
From time to time.