Commitment That word alone scares me Because I've had to deal with people Abandoning me , leaving me Having me pick up my broken pieces on my own So thought of someone staying Confuses me because they say '' I'll stay '' But every single time like clockwork Suddenly it turns into silently leaving me and Abandoning me out of no where So yes the word and actual commitment scares me to the point where I am the one to leave first to spare myself the hurt And of course from what I've seen everyone says they will stay but in reality once one is vulnerable and shows someone all the reasons not to stay along with the brokenness that is their past Of course they all leave That's what I deserve / All I'm used to So why should I expect you to stay Back it up with your actions - excerpt from a book I'll never write