The question is should I use the scalpel or the tablets to take my life;

I am sorry to all those who trusted me,
Sorry to all those who cared,
Sorry to my little apprentices the two I hold so dear,
Sorry to everyone who loves me - I tried to love you back;

I am sorry I didn’t stand up for my self
Sorry I was weak
Sorry I just took it
Sorry I didn’t speak up - I tried but my words choked me;

I am sorry for my indiscretions
Sorry for my depression
Sorry for my lack of control
Sorry I can’t control my demons - I tried to, I really did;

It’s time to stop apologising, it’s time to bring about an end;

So with these final words my friends I say goodbye, god bless and farewell;