the fact that i’m unable to get close to your heart
its frustrating, irritating.

anxiety.

insecurity.

uneasiness.

it’s like i’ve sunk into the darkness
and even if my eyes are closed,
even if theyre open,
no matter how much i strained them,
only black is spread around me.
and inside that place,
im standing paralysed,
at a loss of my own destination.