My neck noosed My legs loosed I witness the tragic It seems so emphatic I feel entropy Enter me Centering Around love and pain I wear gloves of shame Toxicity taints touch My reaction is to cautiously recoil For I feel a great punch When I expect them to be loyal A tear rolls down my cheek Navigating scars Like a man who is meek Navigating bars It starts and stops Then keeps going The tears drop From what I'm knowing That my time is evaporating Dealing with the exasperating
I feel I can be caring I just need the chance We'll see how I'm fairing On the end of your lance Penetrating deeply The pain is unceasing Like a thousand bee stings While you stand there feasting Making me feel alive From the pain inside
I guess things could always be worse Sometimes that feels like a curse Because I have problems all the same But it's true The sum of our troubles equal this game That we lose Even though I'd rather deal with *** and silence Than to be vexed by violence They're all just ways of imposing our will Whether it's through who we birth or **** Conflict is how we get our fill Every day a different fire drill We hate each other We date each other We underrate each other To deflate each other Pain is used as a tool Until blood lays in a pool
These things that annoy us Are met by avoidance These things compound Until I can't be unwound I live in a world of contending intentions It's a world of our own selfish invention A world that burns bright So I can't sleep When day turns to night I hear death creep Seeking to take me from a life I never asked for But I'm grateful to have Life is about experimenting with opening doors And I'm stuck in the lab
Can be found in my self published poetry book βIcyβ. https://www.amazon.com/Icy-Andrew-Rueter-ebook/dp/B07VDLZT9Y/ref=sr_1_1?keywords=Icy+Andrew+Rueter&qid=1572980151&sr=8-1