I wish I could close my eyes and sleep tonight I wish I could erase those bad memories from my heart I wish I could forget who I am just for one day Please don't believe my smile Don't believe when I say I'm fine Don't let me give up, hold my hand Tell me I will be okay Tell me I won't be forgotten Tell me I still have a chance, no need to be hidden Don't allow me to hurt my lips with this fake smile Don't believe it ‘cause I'm bleeding inside I'm weak like a sick flower I could die if you leave me alone I'm so afraid of sleeping in the dark And I can’t turn on the lights ‘cause I don't want you to look at my ugly face I don't know why I'm crying again I don't know why this baby girl in me won't grow up I don't know where to go And I don't know what to do I'm lost in my own world Many closed doors are surrounding me but I don't know which one I've to choose Can't find my way can't see my future my tears blinded my eyes, can't you see I'm broken My body is sweating, can't you feel my hot fever? I was screaming in my dreams but no one heard my voice I was running toward paradise but my feet didn't mirror my moves Can you read my words? Can you see my wounds? Can you understand when I say Don't believe my smile ‘Cause I'm not happy at all I can't be where I want Cause I don't know where I belong I don't even know who I am..
This poem is my first poem that spoke my real life experience , i chose to write about it 'cause i knew that many persons all over the world are feeling the same way too!