I wonder what he thought of me When I was 9 years old. My two sisters and I running around Excited to meet someone Mom brought home
I wonder if he knew then What he would take from my family, From me. I wonder if he knew then The wedges he would place when he tried To make we.
I wonder how long it took him to choose. My older sister never liked him. My younger sister was 4. I guess it could have been worse. It could've been her he had coerced.
When he coached my volleyball team And insisted it was indecent For underage girls to wear spandex uniforms I thought "how nice it is for him to care." I wonder, was he concerned for me Or protecting my delicious modesty?
When he followed me up to my room After my showers Was he waiting outside the door Like he said, or was he waiting for the day he would waltz right in?
When he stayed up Talking to me at night We weren't good friends, Best friends. We were predator and prey. He was trying to make me see That him and me would be okay.
That my mother didn't care. That my sisters weren't worthy. That my friends could never understand. He wanted me to know that I was alone, And he understood. We were the same.
In the same breath He would call me his kid Then tell me how grown I'd gotten. How smart, beautiful, honest. My mother apparently forgotten.