Under the hills
Hiding with pills,
Addicted to thrills
It never fills.

Wanting to live
Never learned to give,
Wish to forgive
Memories I relive.

Wish I could love
Lost hope in above,
I'm awake sort of
Connections I shove.

Rid me of my stress
Lonely I confess,
Don't want to digress
I fear a caress.

Don't hold me tight
My words they bite,
In my head, I know not right,
My distance comes from fright.

I wish we were together,
I wish I could love forever,
But with you I will never
Because all ties I chose to sever.

I want connection
I seek affection
I really want to provide protection,
But when I'm given perfection
I respond only with rejection,
I wish my mind held no election
Only my heart to give injection,
So much pain in collection,
It's hard living in reflection.