You are my antidote.
I used to pop you all the time.
Slipped down my little throat,
He hushed me “baby don’t wine.”
Promised me its all fine.
The ground broke,
Shoved under the rug
Like the past fights...
I should have left all those nights.
You’re proper and shy,
That’s why no one believed when I’d cry.
That’s the thing about control
And the feelings you portray.
You tell me how to feel
But what’s real is always pushed away.
I believed you
Because for awhile you were my pill,
But to say goodbye, I didn’t have the will.
You promised the pain would go away
But yet you inflicted all the more today.
And tomorrow and yet another day.
When I take you I feel good.
But when sober I have distant thoughts
I’d stop you if only I could
I really did love you lots.
But blinded by your eyes
I lacked the sense to despise
From the bruises til the blood,
You swore you’d never let him push you to the mud.
But here you are how you let this come to be...
While he beats you til you no longer see.
The mind is a powerful thing
And he controls your every breath
Because he made you become his everything
Almost addicted to him like ****
But out of your control
He makes you a pariah
You no longer have the name Mariah