I know you want something more,
but I'm afraid I'll never be able to give that to you.
You see, it seems as though I've forgotten how to feel.

I know it sounds bad,
but I guess that's just how it goes
when you fall for someone
who brings out the best in you,
because when he leaves,
all that's left of you
is the worst.

And I'm sorry,
but how am I supposed to know what love is
when the first boy I truly loved
loved another girl at the same time
he supposedly "loved" me?

And how am I supposed to love again
when the only boy I ever loved
chose his first love over me?

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm sorry.
I know this must be hard for you to hear,
but I just don't know how I could ever feel for you
the way I once felt for him.

To be honest,
it's not that I don't remember how to feel.
It's that I don't want to remember.

But maybe you could help me,
teach me to love again,
so I'd finally know what it feels like
to love a boy like you.