i hate to dull you with drugs. to deaden your vibrant colours is to desecrate a sacred temple to the prophets of madness. the lead prophet beats a drum in my temples, calls me to him with elaborate poetry that spills from my head through my veins to my fingers - my elegy to you will never be allowed to be said aloud.
serotonin hurts my head and inextricably more so my heart.
drugs can't help me. they never have. creativity is king. medicine is usurper. i will have to fight it off.