we caught eyes in this convenience store but not because i fancied you. i was piercing you with my gaze lips pursed, ready to spew all of the hatred that swelled within me. you were air and I was a balloon but you didn't expect something so hard from someone so "soft" because since i was a child i was taught to speak only when spoken to to do what men expect you to do to find comfort in getting someone to fall in love with you but i will not settle with being defined by someone else, not even you. ive spent far too long holding my tongue because that's what they expect women to do they expect you to stay silent while they undress you not just with their bodies but with their words, falling like dominoes, spreading until the last one falls but when will the last one fall? when will I feel comfortable walking home by myself? when will my clothes no longer be a form of consent? when will the lines be paralleled? when will birth no longer be punishment? and when that day comes when a boy tells my daughter what she should and shouldn't do, his words like howling winds, destroying everything in their path, she will have been made of stone. and when he compares her to other girls, she will know wholeheartedly that she is a beautious being and not because someone told her so.
so, here we are in this convenience store. and i no longer hold my tongue.