Heart gets slowly consumed by darkness
Tears roll down red cheeks
Shaking hands hold deadly knife
asking whether to **** or not
to believe in god or to be empty till the end

Maybe it is god punishing me for all my sins
For all these years of denying his existance
Maybe I should go back to him and tell that he destroyed me
That I no longer had reasons to live

There is another sleepless night
chased out by recurring nightmares...
Will this night end?
Will my loneliness end?